im sick and tired of all this !,
Sunday, February 7, 2010 @ 8:58 PM
how much more stress can i be now ? tell me . things keep going on and on . even if i ferget about it . turn over a new leaf still things are the same . it sucks to live life this way . i have my own life to live . how can i be possibly tell her to do this do that . i hope she's old enough to handle things by herslef now . what more ? i know i have done my part , my very best to make her feels that we are all around her helping her but the moment when she did something wrong all fingers point at me like im the one who should be blame for everything ! im not living her life . maybe she's just not like the others . yes she's pampered ! she's the last one . she's like an apple in the eye when she did something nice . but when she did things wrongly why didn't blame her ? why didn't point finger at her ? why blame and point it on me ? is not fair isn't it ? everytime i try to speak up and explain things eu said im just making up reasons and excuses ! what the hell ? eu are not at home eu don't know what's happening at home . i told eu before i give up on her but look in the end im the one who still help her . people don't appreciate the things i do infact they say whatever i did was all wrong . i try to take all words as a learning matter but sometimes ur words hurt me deep down . i feel useless . i feel like i failed as a sister and as a daughter . sometimes i just didn't want to hear anything eu people says to me and i wanna make myself invicinble but i know i can't run away from problems and i can't hide away from all of eu cause eu all are my blood and flesh . i just needed eu people to understand that i also need my own time to study , to cope with work and to have my own time to relax . doesn't mean im free i had nothing to do . if i give my free time spending scolding her lecturing her asking her to do this and that asking her to study and all . so tell me when will i ever have my own rest time ? i wake up early morning before eu does ! reach home later than eu . i study at night and the next morning i need to go work again . and atleast eu go to work eu get paid that eu can enjoy with every month but i don't and still i didn't ask any cents from eu . but eu keep on asking me for more . even if im penniless i still find ways to give to eu . tell me , how appreciative are eu towards me ? =[
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So Tired !,
Friday, February 5, 2010 @ 10:49 PM
Drag Queen !
My Dearest Baby Noor Aqil !
okehh people . let's update . so my week at St.Lukes ElderCare is ALL OVER now .
partly im happy , cause i don't have to squeeze thru the train at 7am in the morning and i don't need to wait for the bus ! but partly another 4 more weeks of hell to be gone thru before going back to in campus for my 2.1 ! wooohooo ! wait wait ! 4 more weeks sound so long make it 20days minus 2 days of holidays that means 18days more to school ! lol .
hahahahaha . so happy to go back to school cause i miss school surroundings ! besides that i miss having my beautiful nap inside the train . lol ! can't wait to laugh my ass out in school but this will also depend on the CA incharge . i hope we all get the best teacher if not life in 2.1 will be misrable . hahaha !
so let's see . i think that's all i need to brag about . nothing much huh .
lol ! sayonara people ! sarang'hae'yo =]
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Tired Plus Not Interested !,
Tuesday, February 2, 2010 @ 8:47 PM
auntie ! please don't tear tissue paper !
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menyelit jek raddy ! hahahaa !
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lunch time people ! please enjoy ur food .
love eu and no one else .
let me pathetic enough for today .
im tired . i guess i just lost my mood .
and im so so terrible pissed .
don't ask why and please don't irritate me more .
if i talk to eu nicely be grateful and if i don't im sorry .
i had nothing much to say .
i will give a proper update tmr . goodbye !
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Pathetic day at work huh !,
Monday, February 1, 2010 @ 10:05 PM
pathetic day at w0rk t0day . guess what i did at w0rk ? h0w i wish i was at 74 changing diaper . bathing patient . feeding them . n0w at st.lukes , guess what i did , besides washing butts ! im washing plates ! besides bathing the patient ! im actually cleaning the fl00r ! d0 i l00k like a future h0use-keeping 0r a future nurse ? n0w n0w . tell me ab0ut it ! laugh all eu want kehh . s0und s0 pathetic ! hahaha ! and future m0re my m00d is being disturb by s0me pathetic m0nster ! luckily i was in a hell g00d m00d if n0t i w0uld blast d0wn there . hahaha ! well n0thing much to say . just wanna g0 back to h0spital and werk there . d0nt want t0 stay at st.lukes s0me m0re with n0 pay . l0l !
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Hello,
Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 10:48 PM
Hello blueberry . okehh nonsense . hahaha ! well weekend ended so fast . im sorie for not updating . busy with work and i swear i have not much time spent at home and outside cause most of my time spent outside was working and when im home im sleeping . lol . busy girl lahh kan . i didn't even go out with my baby girls . i bet they miss me damn much . so is my sister lurp . sorie guys . pick a date and update me asap alright ?
so let me see . what i did today was wake up around 10plus . mum , dad and lil sis went to jurong where else i stay home cleaning the house and cook rice . even weekends im stuck at home cleaning and stuff . then i told dad im meeting bf later in the afternoon . well i felt asleep in the afternoon while waiting for bf message . and the moment he text me i quickly get dress . lol ! like always , im the one who is always early no matter how late i try to be . lol ! i meet bf near his house area . it's been months since i last meet him . didn't do much just sit and talk with him . and i swear i can't stop laughing . i know , he knows . it was a serious matter lahh but i don't know why i keep on laughing till now . and i know i annoy bf alot when i always smiling and laughing . lol . sorie but i can't help it .
so i reach home early . im having a good relationship between me and dad . he didn't nag at me as much often like he always did . lol ! eu see . im becoming a good daughter now . lol ! and i've been tutoring lil sis homework . so partially da is happy with me . hahaha .
i have nothing much to say . i just wish time fly so fast ! cause i wanna go back to campus ! werking life is so boring .
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